Isn't it...

...lovely?
I could be having the worst day ever & just a few moments with certain people can make it feel like the best. I think that's one of the many reasons that I find human connection, on a deeper level, so important. I mean, if you think about it, what are we actually here for if not to impact & learn from other people. Without other people, our lives would be pointless, droning moments of unsatisfactory & unfulfulling decisions for ourselves & only ourselves. Other people add complexity to our everyday lives. & sure, there would not be as much of a differentiation between right & wrong, but it's that decision which helps us to make the right choices for ourselves. If it were just me, myself, & I, I would not be able to learn from others mistakes & could really do some damage to my own living. I think all of this explains why I am such a people watcher. I can't help but notice the little things that people say & do & the way in which they go about it. Twitches & moans can tell you more about how a person is feeling than any words could dare to express. I'm pretty sure that is also why I find lying so intrigueing as well. You can tell someone is lying because of the stressors which appear in their faces, gestures, or word patterns.
People make life worth living. Through love, lessons, hate, & anything else they decide to throw at you, they are the reason we all do what we need to do. As for me, I plan to make as many connections as possible before I die so I won't miss a thing.
That's all for now. Peace ouuuuut.

There's always a...

...silver lining.
  Or so I'd like to believe.  Everything just seems to fall into place these days.  Fate has a way of surprising me.  I thought that there was the possibility that my life was going to be shitty forever.  But guess who was proven wrong?  This girl.  I think there is definitely a reason for everything & that everything happens for a reason.  We just have to sit back for a minute & take a look at what led to what & why.  Then, people may have a much brighter outlook on their situations.  I know it works for me.  Well, that's all for now.  Peace ouuuuuuuuut(:

If at first you don't succeed...

...try, try again.
I guess that has been a very motivational statement for most of my life. I repeat it violently to myself over & over again. I would have given up absolutely everything otherwise, especially in the field of love. & I know that I am young & have so much time for such frivolous things. However, I would just like to say that, for me, love is the ultimate living experience. If you have real, unabashed love, then you will always feel some kind of irrevocable hope. I don't know. Maybe I am just nuts but we all are in our own ways. Ha. Lately, I have been on a rollercoaster of emotions. Complete with twists, turns, & surprise drops & lifts. Its exhilarating & also rather exhausting. School is long & frustrating even though I am enjoying most of my classes. I just want to graduate so I can move on. I wish I had a job so that I wasn't such a mooch. It reeeeeeally sucks. I hate having to borrow money all the time. It makes me feel cheap & worthless. &, honestly, that's not a great feeling to have. Along with getting a job I could get a car, which would be a miracle from above!
As for my love life, its all very complicated. Immediately upon mutually ending my last little fling ( thank God ), I decided to quit smoking & ended up meeting someone who appreciates that quite a lot. At this point, I guess I would change the "love" in "love life" to "like". This because, for the first time in a long time, this person & I have decided to take things verrrrrrry s l o w l y. There are no false or premature proclamations of love where it does not exist. & this I can really appreciate. Its all very sweet & innocent & it has a way of making me feel absolutely wonderful while scaring the living shit out of me. Its been almost 2 years since the last time I took anything "slow". I can, truthfully, say that I don't really know how to anymore. I couldn't say for the life of me whether I was going too fast or at just the right pace. I do know that I WILL NOT put out. That is a mistake I never ever want to make again.
But, all in all, I'm seizing every day & trying to make the most of it. Wish me luck. Peace ouuuuut(;