“The mind can make a heaven out of hell or a hell out of heaven” – John Milton
Thursday, October 7, 2010
A quote which basically...
...tells my life story:
“The mind can make a heaven out of hell or a hell out of heaven” – John Milton
“The mind can make a heaven out of hell or a hell out of heaven” – John Milton
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Its...
...VENTING TIME.
Why, oh, why does this always happen to me? I have good luck & then it always turns sour. Can I not just have something that makes me happy without it completely going to hell? Apparently the answer is this: "You may have good luck but it will always come with a consequence which you must bear." Too bad all of my consequences inevitably cancel out the good fortune which I do get to experience. I have had an awful day & I just wish that I had more of the answers which I wanted. I feel sad, pathetic, & downright angry. I just want somebody to be there for me when I need them the most. I guess that is a lot to ask but I will continue to ask it anyways.
I am truly tired of not knowing. It drives me to the point of pure insanity. I over-analyze everything & it drives me mad. I try so hard to be optimistic & usually it works. But sometimes the old pessimistic me bears her ugly head & decides that I am going to be depressed & in a hole so far down in the pit of despair that I cannot possibly claw my way back to the top without somebody else's help. & its not so easy to tell who that person could possibly be. Most often, it varies & the way in which that person does it varies as well. But most of the time I just need somebody to tell me that they care about me; to hold me when I'm breaking so that I am not left on the ground. But that's silly, right? We can't depend on other people to be strong for us. We have to be strong for ourselves. Well, what if I'm not that strong? I think about that a lot actually. What if, in the end, I am doomed because the thoughts in my head are just too heavy a burden for my body to carry & so I go into a comatose, vegetable state of numbness which I cannot, for the life of me, break free of? God, I sound like such a downer but really, that's how I feel right now. I would like very much for someone to snap me out of this. Please & thank you. Peace out.
Why, oh, why does this always happen to me? I have good luck & then it always turns sour. Can I not just have something that makes me happy without it completely going to hell? Apparently the answer is this: "You may have good luck but it will always come with a consequence which you must bear." Too bad all of my consequences inevitably cancel out the good fortune which I do get to experience. I have had an awful day & I just wish that I had more of the answers which I wanted. I feel sad, pathetic, & downright angry. I just want somebody to be there for me when I need them the most. I guess that is a lot to ask but I will continue to ask it anyways.
I am truly tired of not knowing. It drives me to the point of pure insanity. I over-analyze everything & it drives me mad. I try so hard to be optimistic & usually it works. But sometimes the old pessimistic me bears her ugly head & decides that I am going to be depressed & in a hole so far down in the pit of despair that I cannot possibly claw my way back to the top without somebody else's help. & its not so easy to tell who that person could possibly be. Most often, it varies & the way in which that person does it varies as well. But most of the time I just need somebody to tell me that they care about me; to hold me when I'm breaking so that I am not left on the ground. But that's silly, right? We can't depend on other people to be strong for us. We have to be strong for ourselves. Well, what if I'm not that strong? I think about that a lot actually. What if, in the end, I am doomed because the thoughts in my head are just too heavy a burden for my body to carry & so I go into a comatose, vegetable state of numbness which I cannot, for the life of me, break free of? God, I sound like such a downer but really, that's how I feel right now. I would like very much for someone to snap me out of this. Please & thank you. Peace out.
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